“Many, O LORD my God, are your wonderful works Which You have done; and your thoughts toward us cannot be recounted to You in order; If I would declare and speak of them, They are more than can be numbered.” Psalm 40:5
I was born in a Hindu family, as I grew; my parents were saved by the grace of God and became believers after hearing gospel from a believer. Then onwards, we started going to church regularly. My parents are a great blessing in my life. I have one younger brother. I used to go to church regularly and actively participate in all the activities. I used to pretend like a Godly child to impress everybody. I used to go to church for friends. Sovereign God caught me in 1993 at Ephrathah prayer house, India. When a preacher was preaching, he was pointing out his finger to me and asking me to ask forgiveness from God which made me to fear for my sins, made me to repent and ask forgiveness to God for my sins. I realized that the fun I’m having at church with friends is not good for me and I could see my sinful nature and how hypocrite I was. Then I accepted Lord Jesus Christ as my God and savior in 1993 and committed my life to him. This brought great change in me. I obeyed God and witnessed in waters of baptism in 1995.
"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it." Romans 7:18-20
My spiritual life was good for 3yrs after my baptism, as I had a great zeal to love God. Later, I entered into computer world. Then I started backsliding slowly. New goals, new friends entered in my life which made me very busy and was working hard to be the best. So, started skipping church and ignored to read or listen to God's word, which slowly brought back my sinful nature, sinful thoughts and sinful deeds. I was loving everything and desiring everything except God. Almost 4yrs I ignored to fear my Creator. I believe my mom’s prayers stood for me. Loving God protected me continually by his grace with patience and kindness which I’m not deserve to receive because I was not mindful of him. I started seeing failures, rejections which frustrated me very badly and I was losing my health too. I was left alone without job though equipped with good software knowledge. I came to a point of desparate need of God's help to set right the mess in my life but not sure of getting it. Then God helped me to remember that"All day long I (God) have stretched forth my (his) hands unto disobedient (me)".
Merciful God made me to realize that I committed my life to Him but never gave control to Him. I asked God for forgiveness, wept and repented for my sins and asked him to take control on my life. Till date God is in control of my life and never left my hand and gave me confident that“he(God) who began a good work in you(me) will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6”. Gracious God drew me closer to him year after year, and increased my faith. "Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!" psalm 66:20
My marriage was a big challenge to me and to my parents because my marriage was a first Christian marriage. My parent’s prayers for me never went in vain. God was very faithful towards me, and gave Vijay as a wonderful husband in 2004 who is also from Hindu background committed his life to Christ. God blessed me with a little princess - (Princy) Sarah Ashritha. God brought us to USA and gave us a good church with good prayerful believers and helping me to learn and grow in God and gave me blessed promise and hope to stand in him and wait for him till he takes me home.
"The grace of God which is given you by Jesus Christ; That in everything ye are enriched by him, ....Even as the testimony of Christ was confirmed in you: .....waiting for the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ: Who shall also confirm you unto the end, that ye may be blameless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful," . 1Corinthians 1:4-9